just growing and growing at this point - loosing the control of restriction is scary because although restricting is also a bad thing to do - it reminds you that you do still have control and you can trust yourself to do what you want to do. Binge eating I just feel like you loose complete self trust, self love and it manifests in all areas of life :( #bingeeating #bed #bingeeatingdisorder #bingeeatingrecovery #edrecovery