Been cheated among others things. Have not dated anyone since 2016. Was in a very deep depression. In that depression I became over weight to the point where I did not care anymore if I died or not. Went to the hospital one day for Covid and found out my weight. I cried that day all night to find out I was a little over 400 pounds. That was a little over two thanksgiving ago. I have tried to go to the gym but I had made fun of for my weight I refuse to go to the gym now. It’s hard to go on dates when even in your own community you are being treated like shit. With no fems, no fats, no only bottoms, no latins, no this or that. It’s terrible. Being ridiculed in your own community. Who would want to continue being. I have always been the friend that helps everyone and is there for everyone. But wished for someone to be there for me. But this is a new year now and I’m gonna do this for me. And even though I want to look for love I will just focus on looking for my peace of mind and heart, love will come if it happens it happens but I’m gonna love me first. So 2026 it’s gonna be a better year for me and starting with a good slate. Since I found out about my weight I have lost some and now I am 337 pounds. I have stopped eating sweets for the most part. Since thanksgiving I have no longer eaten a donut or sweets. I will continue this journey on my own and one day if it happens I wish I can find a guy in my life that will love me for me. Till then I will love me and try to be more of the person I want to be and say good bye to my depression forever. #gaymer #gayrant #latinx #gaylife #mystory